jaded. school is sucking all my energy away. everyday’s like a battle.
sudden series of dreams these few nights. but it somehow seem so real. why seriously. this is damn gay but i will rmb the first movie we watch tgt.
life.
week 2. positivity.. i guess counting down to the end of practicum (may 4th) isnt really that practical afterall. i will and i must enjoy my job and do my best to love and help my students, though school is really draining all my energy away…. ):
ps: but still, some students deserved to be scolded !
work.
time flies seriously. day 3 of working. feels so different to be working..sometimes i really miss being a student. EQ and positivity, EQ and positivity… wont be here so often alr..not that i always do. but yeah.
limit.
tell me how, tell me what to do..it seems like im losing faith in everything. i say i’ve done my best, but sometimes, even the best isnt good enough ):
im trying to stop overthinking or overworrying or whatnot. but freak, im still feeling extremely guilty of saying such things to you to hurt you and i said im sorry and i really was. i din knw that sentence could hurt you THATTT much, but u know what, ur whatsapp to me wasnt that nice either. i still sincerely hope we can still be friends and not be awkward when we see each other in school.
plus, im definitely not looking forward to practicum. at all. not just the waking early part, but like i really would miss being a student, being real and crazy with your favourite friends in school. but oh wells, i have to grow up eventually and start working. i pray i’ll get to learn to be more independent and stop being so whiney.
